After so many years, I have decided to write an article about how my life was, after years of working in BPO companies. Literally, it is life changing. It changed my sleeping and eating habits, daily activities and time with my children and adjustment to more of the things I wasn't able to enjoy. I am happy that I was able to reach 10 years working with three big BPO companies and I had great experiences with each. But, do not to take my favorite coffee away every day!
Of course, life is totally different now. I am laid back at home, taking care of our kids, having a small business in photo printing, photocopying, editing and a lot more.
Last year, March 2018, I resigned from my company and decided to live away from where I used to. Away from my family, from what I usually do, places to go and people to mingle. It is somehow shocking, that all of a sudden I have to divert everything in just one snap! But God is good, I was able to accept the surroundings, the people, the food, the transportation, everything.
I'm a kinda quiet person at first time you'll see me, cause I am an observer. I just looked around, I smile at everybody, I just nod as long as I know we're not going into something serious and I am somewhat aloof and looks not so friendly. But, hey, don't judge me right away! Cause I can be the very best friend you can always count on. I love sharing my ideas to people who have interests in what I usually do and to those who want to learn.
I had facial problems too. I had pimple breakouts. I don't know if this is due to water in the area or because of hormonal imbalance because I had IUD contraceptive device for five years and that' the result? I have so many questions of why and what happened but I know it will be healed.
Just wondering because I worked the night shift. As they say, when you're lack of rest and sleep you'll have pimple breakouts. When I'm still working, I don't have breakouts, AT ALL! So all of a sudden, I had a lot that it is uncontrollable. It came to the point that I hate to see my self in front of a mirror. I lose my confidence. my husband somehow bullied me though I know he is just motivating me to check out what is going on. Up to now, I have breakouts and I'm still looking for the right medications and remedies on how I could get over this, I know this will end.
Province life is somehow strange. I used to be in large cities drinking my Starbucks frap or Milk Tea, but when you are in a remote area where almost everything is limited, you'll think ten times before living in there. I can tell there are so many differences but I was able to cope with it. Good thing that I am a hobbyist and that helped me a lot. I am a crocheter, making some small projects for my self, Made To Order goods for my customers and personalized items for giveaways and so much more. And this kept me occupied aside from taking care of my children, house chores and my small business. I am gifted with every talent that I could showcase and I want to use it in my daily routine.
And since I am preoccupied of so many things, I cannot focus on the things that I really love.
First is music, my first love. I cannot perform music anymore, unlike before, when I am in Manila, I just need to ride a cab and go straight to my Music teacher to play the piano.
Second, is singing. I am not a good singer but I can do duets with First voices cause I am an Alto or a second voice singer. Something related to playing musical instruments but then again, in the province, I am not known and I don't have a lot of friends so I just sing in the bathroom. (Chuckles)
I can draw, I can dance and paint cause it is in our bloodline. Life is very limited to such things and tho we were given a lot of talents, we need to be in focus on top 3's we could be hands on to.
Since I had 10 years working in BPO companies, I forget what I want; What I really love and how to preserve those priceless gifts. I would like to teach my kids, but nowadays, children are very different from our generation way back. Kids right now, have their own gadgets, they know how to search on the internet. They know how to operate the application on my phone and even on my laptop and I am amazed at that. Before, I don't even know how to use a remote control unless I was told to change channels. I am trying to introduce them the basics and the old school activities but they usually ignore the idea. I am not giving up, cause I know, I have the power to overrule their wants at this moment before they could have theirs. (Giggles)
10years ago, I give birth to my eldest son, Chev. He is the apple of our eyes and he means everything to us, after 4 years, here comes Bently. Witty young boy and the clown of our family. I wasn't able to take care of them when I was working and I thought that we have that great connection. Because I can buy what they want and have them go to places they haven't visited. BUT, when I resigned, reality slapped me! It's telling me that; because you are working and you don't have the quality time to your kids, so this is how they are to you! There were scenarios that they don't appreciate me! They are not used to be sleeping with me and it breaks my heart. They are looking for my parents who are with them almost every day. Playing with them, having daily conversations and activities. But for we just spent hours talking about small things what they wanted to buy, eat or toys and places to visit.
No personal, one on one talk on how was the day went for them? What's the toy for today? What was the best food they ate? And so much more than I have missed.
My eldest now is nine and he is turning 10 this year. I admit I am really having a hard time with him. I know it is on how I discipline him, cause I usually give what he wants, I cannot say "NO!" And I tolerate almost everything he wants to. When the youngest is a copy cat of my eldest. He is just doing the same things and behavior on what he sees on his elder brother. There are days that giving up is the only escape but I know it can't be! I am their mother and this is my forever job and I am grateful! Not every woman was given a chance to have their own children and family.
What I do, when my mind is about to blow, like what I always tell my kids; When you felt bad, and when you are mad nor angry, just close your eyes, breathe in deep an breathe out loosely and pray.
I am happy tho they can't apply that eventually, I can see their improvements. They were kids and they have so many flaws to discover and we parents should support and understand them.
I admit, I the kind of mother who disciplines my kids in Filipino ways because we believe that spanking is a form of showing love. Not because you love to spank them but to let them know what is good and bad. Not to spank in full force but just to remind them that they committed something that is not right. Of course not to spank them at all cause. There should be reasons why you did it, not because you only want to. If things can be done thru basic talking and confrontations, then spanking should not be done, unless they go beyond unreasonable doubts.
Thankful For The Changes
Thanks to my long term partner-husband who never fails to support me and our family.
I am looking forward to enjoying more unforgettable memories in his provinces, we're just waiting for his transfer to be fulfilled so we could enjoy our family together.
I am also thankful for everything. About the same thing I have, new things to cope up and people to be with. Life is short, we have to enjoy every bit of it, Forget the bad vibes and just enjoy the great memories. Past is part of our lives and it made us who we are right now, It made us stronger and better. If there were chances we could share what we have, skills, financially or support just extend your hands to others. God is always watching. He always sees your good deeds.
Changes were worth the wait for some and unacceptable for others. But always remember, things happen for some great reasons and you will not be given those changes if you can't handle them,
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I want this, I want sharing stories and ideas. I think it is better this way than exchanging ideas to literal humans because I recently had issues on giving out so many ideas but it turned out that I am ruling them out that I became manipulative that they don't really want what I am doing or sharing with them. It's a pain in the neck and a stab on my back, but life is still good, I was able to recognize the problem earlier and work out with my flaws.
It is true that we really have to follow the "Golden Rule".
We should consider the fact that we can't please everybody.
We sometimes need to swallow our pride to get what we want or get other's trust.
More about me and my family on my next blog.
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